Allah Isn’t Supporting Me

Components of Imaan

Four years in the past a guy proposed me, but I refused him as I did not want a haram relationship. Many instances he requested me for marriage, and I stated I might communicate to my dad and mom approximately it. He stated after he completed his research he would ask my dad and mom for marriage. We had been in the identical college, so we have been in touch.

As time exceeded I fell in love with him. I commenced liking everything about him. He used to take care of me and protect me. After a 12 months, he once more requested me to marry him, and this time I said yes. I noticed tears in his eyes. He instructed his circle of relatives approximately me, and his sister start speakme to me. She stated she could come to my house to talk to my parents.
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In those 4 years we each have become very near each different. But I made one huge mistake,  so at some point of this time we each got physically interested in each other. I knew it was sin, so I asked Allah for forgiveness on every occasion. We both knew it became incorrect. we attempted to keep away from sitting by myself. Now four years have exceeded, and my mother and father want me to get married now. They are locating a boy for me.

He had a fight with his mother and father. Whenever he talked to them for marriage, they stated no, and he became tensed. One day we had a fight, and he left me. He stated our marriage isn’t always searching feasible to him, and he is bored to death with our fights.

I prayed to Allah that he comes lower back to me and gets married to me. For three months, all night I hold praying. I pray regularly 5 instances. I study Qur’an each day. I’m an amazing Muslim, and the simplest sin I have done is getting physical with him. A thousand times I even have requested Allah for forgiveness, however Allah in no way listens to me. 

I don’t want to to get married to each person else. I do not want some other man to touch me. I continually imagined him as my husband, and continually prayed to Allah that I get married to that man. I had consider in Allah; I knew Allah could in no way try this to me. But Allah did this. Now I do not sense like praying or reading Qur’an. I’m shattered and broken. I sense like Allah isn’t always with me. I even have wanted for something, and that is the first time I requested Allah for something this desperately. I pray and cry all night time in sajood, however Allah is not being attentive to me. I became so connected to Allah and used to love Allah a lot, however now I sense disconnected with Allah and I don’t love Him. I don’t need to mention this, however yes I do not love Him anymore.

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